The Past for the Know (and then Today)
So you know…Here’s a little code:
Him/He/the male pronoun – Brian
Bitch – Tabitha (Brians crush; Sluts cousin)
Slut/Whore/Skank – Courtney (Brian’s new girlfriend)
Mask- pretend happy face
Sunday, October 1st, 2006 – Beyond perfect day for me and Brian. Really, it was PERFECT!
Monday, October 2nd, 2006 – He is mad at me for no reason in the morning. In the afternoon, he says he’s thinking of breaking up with me. Around 9 or 10 pm, he broke up with me. Goes out with the nasty Skank but doesn’t tell me (yet).
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006 – I don’t go to school but Brian comes over anyways. He kisses me (twice) and tells me he still loves me. Little did I know it would be our last kiss. I still don’t know about Courtney yet. After school, Brandi comes over and we decide to go see Sametta and her new baby. That night, Brian lets me know that him and the stupid whore are together.
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006 – We decide we’re going to stay friends. But now, he’s denying ever kissing me Tuesday morning. And saying he didn’t even come over that morning. I’m not going to argue though because I still want him as a friend. Even though that Bitch decided she’d rub their relationship in my face. She started texting me…”They are so cool together!” “They look so cute together!” “He’s SO much happier now!” But she can go fuck herself. I had to put on my mask and pretend I’m perfectly fine with the skanky ass whore and Brian being together. Pretend I’m happy for them. Ha! I hope she rots in hell. But on a better note…I was talking to Jacob today. I went to just ask him one lousy question but we got talking and was talking for two hours. He’s so hot. lol I really want to start talking to him more. Become at least just friends with him. I really do. But I doubt it but I hope…
And that brings us to the present…
Thursday, October 5th, 2006 – Today was my first day back to school. I stayed home all week. I really am trying to get over Brian but it’s SO FUCKING HARD! I know this is all going to end for the better. But it’s really hard and it hurts so much. Badly. I put on my mask around him and his friends today at school. But around my friends, I was comforted with hugs and comforting words. I really love my friends. I couldn’t survive this without them. But the bus ride to school was pretty much hell. It was so hard being right there so near him, and yet at the same time…so, so far. And it really doesn’t help that Chris Brown’s song “Say Goodbye” was on the radio. That sounds exactly how he said it. Yet he was with the whore in just minutes. This is going to be so hard but I think I might be able to make it through. With help at least.
